Out of the Lair, released 1994

Song	Lyrics	.wav	.mp3	.ram
Out Of The Lair
At The Borderline
The Need
In The Jaws of Memories
Amun, Oh Amun
The Place Where The Old Souls Dance
Five Miles High
Arise!
Demon Wind
Heaven Is Only Inches Away
Copyright © 1994 Tom Aragon/Maggie St Michel.  All rights reserved. All songs by Tom Aragon/Maggie St Michel, except Arise!, Tom Aragon/ Maggie St Michel/Rick Fisk; first verse from the Rubaiyat of Omar Khayam y Note: The .ram version of Amun, Oh Amun is an instrumental only version

 

Out of the Lair [back]

I've been waiting for you... You feel like you're in a dream- at first everything seems all right, but slowly it starts to turn unkind and you're like a fly stuck in something sticky and sweet And you're thinking that maybe this would be a good time to leave but your legs won't obey And even though you shouldn't watch your eyes latch on the spider just a few strands away... and now, at last, you see... the world behind the glass... the tones that chime and wrap you in their dark mist you touch the meaning and then it's lost...

and you're falling down the Rabbit Hole where is Alice? where is Mole? and all the time the colors swirl but your mind only sees the blur and nothing is quite what it seems and the mirror speaks but the mirror's cracked just one voice slips through the gap the voice is mine imagine that so when the good boys and girls are all asleep remember the Fountain and drink it deep for I am the one who takes you there but you must find your own way OUT OF THE LAIR

 

The Need [back]

Taste the Need, a salty bile. It mocks my life then it smiles. Feel the urge all over me until all reason leaves from me. Feel the Need and watch it grow. Urge the fire; watch it glow. The Need sees all with sightless eyes. The Need can deafen with its cries. The Need It has no face, it has no name. It's not like knowledge you can tame. It has no home that it can claim but it torments me all the same. It ties my hands with golden thread. It makes me shiver cold with dread.

It sucks me up inside itself It sucks me up but it's not done It grabs my thoughts and chokes my heart No place to turn, nowhere to run It's like some monster that must feed but there's no food to fill the Need. It stabs at safety like a knife. It knows no caution in its life. It's Hunger wide and Hunger deep that twists the soul and doesn't sleep The Need

 

In the Jaws of Memories [back]

For a while I lived my dream and you were at my side. Just a sip from your ruby lips and I was satisfied. I should have said I love you but I turned away instead and now all the might-have-beens are spinning in my head. Too hard to go forward Too late to turn back Much too hard to laugh Much too late to cry In the jaws of memories that eat me up inside In the dark I sit alone while the hours just creep by each second is a heartbeat each second is a sigh

I should have said I love you but I turned away instead and now all the might-have-beens are spinning in my head. I thought we would be together Look how wrong I've been The darkness just gets darker and the sadness closes in Too hard to go forward Too late to turn back Much too hard to laugh Much too late to cry In the jaws of memories that eat me up inside

 

Amun, Oh Amun [back]

Amun, Oh Amun! Where have your children gone? Your temples fill with blowing sand. Your columns lie scattered. Your people don't understand. The rays of the sun were once your sign; you, oh, most holy one! Now your glyph is in shadow, forgotten by passing time. Amun! When did you cease to speak? The incense filling your chambers. The gifts of fruit and wine. The chants of faithful singers. Festivals in your name, through the centuries: endless seemed your fame. Now lizards skim the paths of priests in another time.

Amun! I hear your mute lament! With your tears, the Nile fills. With your sleep, the night begins. With your smile, the farmer tills. Is it so long ago- the land of milk and honey that you used to know? Can the Aton with the new name take your place in time? Amun, Oh Amun! Hear my restless plea! Call your people back to you. Call your children to care for you. Call your music to sing for you. Release from bondage those who forgot the past, moving to a new age. Can you meet the challenge, great one, or are you forever lost in time?

 

the place where the old souls dance [back]
I drew a circle on the ground and flames licked the sky I heard the pounding of the drums I watched the ashes fly.... and then you came into view wise, proud, innocent knowing yet unknown still searching, still becoming a lion and a fawn there's a strange sense of time out of place like you stepped out of somewhere else complete and unborn a familiar old soul don't we astonish each other and drive each other on and pull the best out teaching each other what we know in an ancient tongue	we're in that place where the old souls dance and carry on like they were never gone familiar moves, familiar looks a sense of being home such a surprise seeing you from the outside in after being with you inside looking out such a surreal shift of view bringing light to every place where you happen to step in even without looking I can feel your presence like a warm embrace what an unexpected wonder to find you living here crossing both space and time to join me where...	I drew a circle on the ground and the sons of Indians and the spirit guide appeared in the place where the old souls dance

 

Five Miles High [back]
Let the chips fall where they may Let the poisons flow Let the end hide in tortured darkness Let the devil play Fight a future that has no meaning Bring a friend to life Push out past where you see the grieving Fly the fire storm tonight See the world fractured in a prism Watch the light swallowed in your fear Push away all the pretty theory Let the chips fall where they may Much too long waiting for a prophet Hearing wisdom in a peanut jar Push the thought out to the jungle Catch the sneeze from a passing star
	Turn around, it's not like you left here Stay behind, while they pass you by Scorn their ways even though you love them Kiss their feet though they make you laugh Push away the cornflakes and jello Move your feet to a new desire Flying high the worry all behind you The rush of seed into your mind Chase the sun to a new horizon Bless the race that makes you alive Force the choice beating in your ribcage Be the goat but stay the lamb Move along with the speed of mountains Watch the evil while you are blessed Just ignore all the prideful favors Turn around to see you never left
Let the fog come settle all around you Let the chips fall where they may Let the father die and then surround you Let the essence fill your velvet nave Push the word to the edge of meaning Leap across to where madness dance Feel a brand burn into matter Feel the sparks jump through the net Catch a glance into perfect madness Turn around to find you never left Move away with the speed of mountains Let your spirit find it is blessed

 

Arise! [back]

Awake! for Morning in the Bowl of Night has flung the stone that puts the stars to flight And Lo! the hunter of the east has caught the Sultan's turret in a noose of light Arise! Shouts loudly in my head Surprise! I thought that voice was dead Sometimes a whisper or a scream instead Urging to follow before my dreams have fled So much like the swelling tide that rises slowly but sweeps all aside A vision born in fear and hope A need as formless as windblown smoke Bending all beneath its will Filling with music the mind that's still Is it a choice or is it a force to follow the flame and discover its source

 

Demon Wind [back]

Lived too long hiding in the shadows waiting for the clouds to clear. Spent too long looking for the answers and the doubts to disappear. But there's a Demon Wind rising through the shadows with the heat of lust tonight A cleansing blast of the dragon's fire The Demon Wind wins my soul this night Urgently but still a murmur in the caverns of my mind An icy chill so I will remember to wait is to stay behind

Somewhere there's a temple where the earth can touch the sky Somewhere there is music so moving, you will cry Someday it all comes easy and you fit into your place Somehow the wind will send you all the things that you chase It's the Demon Wind rising through the shadows with the heat of lust tonight A cleansing blast of the dragon's fire The Demon Wind wins my soul this night

 

Heaven is Only Inches Away [back]

Did you see the moon last night? Did you notice the wind that caught in your hair and the scent of places it brought unaware Does the gold light of the sunset make you stop where ever you are or do you drive with no purpose hoping the mood won't ever end Do you notice the leaves changing their colors like they can't decide in currents and eddies that rise in the air. What is it about this time and this sky that makes it seem heaven is only inches away Were you sleeping last night or did you turn and toss Did images too bright to be real pull your butterflies from inside and turn them into what you wished was true were you shaking from the cold in the room

or was it a thought you couldn't control repeating until every nerve stood on end extending out from where you lay bristling and raw Did you reach out your hand in the darkness sure of what you would touch suddenly anything possible in the quiet certain that heaven was only inches away Do you feel like the waves of your ocean have ripped from your soul and slipped silently into another, safe and warm shimmering as they flow wave upon wave, gold into gold mingling with each other, one just closer, that's all and heaven is only inches away

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